great memories of life in Aussie will definitely be embedded in their minds.

its been almost 2wks here in Sydney. im beginning to love the weather, company, sceneary, lifestyle, space and basically everything!
cant wait to check out Melbourne and Brisbane!

i've also been taking notice of the ppl and culture around.
i realise tt ppl here arent afraid of expressing themselves and how they feel as compared to us asians where we're afraid of what ppl wld think of us and how it'll affect another person's feelings.
we'd some times end up not bringing up a point just cos we dont want the other person to be affeceted but actually tt person wants to hear it?
this leads to my nxt point abt having communication prob in SG.
many wld just say its 'generation gap' but i think the main point is actually the willingness to actually take time off to explain what one's trying to say and mean before giving up?
i have issues with bad command of eng and not being able to form proper sentence.
i usually end up not being able to say what i mean and having to use broken eng to prove a point.
which is really bad..
i hope to improve my eng and hopefully be more confident a person when i talk to ppl and trying to bring a message accross.

btw we caught Sex and the City 2 today. i find it really racist and i feel really bad for the 3 Muslims tt were sitting in front of us. i'd just walk out of the cinema if i were them. they actually paid to watch a movie tt mocked abt their religion. my god..

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junwei just lost it at 4:50 am on 04 June 2010

ORD LOH!! finally man..

been damn long since i last blogged! nth much life stuff to talk abt.

been doing some soul searching and thinking abt my character lately.

there're two things tt i'd like to highlight and i think they're all kinda interlinked.

'must i be really tt rude?'
i rmb my senior in band once told me tt he hated my guts.
i had the guts to rebel against my band seniors in the past.
my guts got me into a lot of trouble..

i think society have shaped me into who i am today.
we all learn to give the best in everything we do, if not dont do it at all.
so much so tt we expect ppl to give their best in return too.

im very easily offended.
things like telling the manager tt his food suck?

'haiyo dont like tt. ppl also making a living only..' -Dad

do you often have the feeling of letting irresponsible ppl feel the pain and inconvenience tt they've inflicted on others? or you'll just forgive and forget?

becos i've been made used before, i tend to be more aware of my surroundings and doubt ppl's intentions?

bahhh..

i hope this coming 3mths in Aust will make me a more relaxed and forgiving person..

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junwei just lost it at 1:51 am on 19 May 2010

I FUCKING HATE IT WHEN MY PHONE RINGS!!
especially this RED HOT period where i have only 2 hours to get back when 'it' happens..

so guys.. phone calls are really not appreciated for now unless its of superb importance.

thank you.

another thing.. i dont knw why ppl LOVE to do things last min. im totally fine with it if it doesnt affect anyone but in most cases, it fucking involves ME.

Person A from workshop just called and dropped a Surprise Bomb asking for something tt i've alrdy settled 2days ago? come on man.. if you knw tt you need this on mon, why didnt you ask for it long ago? so come Mon when you guys dont have food, it'll become my fault again cos i didnt issue it to you?

FUCK YOU.

it irritates the hell out of me becos Person A might just be another NSF tt was instructed by his superior to come draw from me. does Person A deserve all the whining and showing of attitude? naturally i'll just scold the person who asks me for it right?

i fucking hate my job.

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junwei just lost it at 2:34 pm on 05 March 2010

Wallaby was hell..
so glad to be back.
countless paging for HQCQ will always be in my mind.

i've mastered the art of saying 'orh' and doing nth abt it.
i've learned the art of having selective hearing.
i've attained the skills of being oblivious to things.

i've lowered my level of EQ significantly and learning to have 0 ampathy for others.

it sucks when your fate/futures is in someone's hands and you cant do anything abt it.
it sucks more when you cant continue with work just becos some idiot doesnt want to get his part done.

thank you army..

"its abt the soft skills tt you take away with you after you ORD." -Alan Woo

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junwei just lost it at 3:59 am on 10 December 2009

jetting off for Ex Wallaby in a few hours time!

see ya bitches! (: .

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junwei just lost it at 1:36 am on 06 November 2009

I’m part of a lost generation
and I refuse to believe that
I can change the world.
I realised this may be a shock but
“Happiness comes from within”
is a lie, and
“Money will make me happy”
So in 30years I will tell my children
they are not the most important thing in my life
My employer will know that
I have my priority straight because
work
Is more important than
family
I tell you this
Once upon a time
Families stayed together
but this will not be true in my era
This is a quick fix society
Experts tell me
30 years from now
I will celebrate the 10th anniversary of my divorce
I do not concede that
I will live in the country of my own making
In the future
Environmental destructions will be the norm
No long can it be said that
My peers and I care about this earth
It will be evident that
My generation is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume
There is hope
and all these will come true unless we choose to reverse it.

now, try reading it the reverse way.
starting from
'There is hope'
'It is foolish to presume'
etc..

saw this from a video on fb.
find it quite meaningful.
enjoy. (: .

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junwei just lost it at 10:22 pm on 12 October 2009

its finally over.
after 9 mths of attending ppl's 21st
it was finally my turn last night.
haha.
thanks to the ppl who made my party possible
Godma, Kim, Clarence, Robin, Kenny, Catherine and everyone who attended it.
boo to the ppl who RSVP-ed and didnt show up.
lots of food wasted man..

anyway, yea turned 21 alrdy.
time to take on more responsibilities in life.
cant wait to get out of army.
really pity those who have to spend their 21st bday in army camp and doing duties.
wth right?

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junwei just lost it at 07:00 am on 13 September 2009

what a first day.
4 store man.
1 MC till ORD.
1 entered DB today.
2 SOL.

WOW.

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junwei just lost it at 9:14 pm on 07 September 2009

first day of being a CQ tmr..
wish me luck!!

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junwei just lost it at 11:21 pm on 06 September 2009

i'll make it happen the nxt time round.

its not special anymore.

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junwei just lost it at 11:46 pm on 04 September 2009

the person who invented Webcam shld be knighted. (: .

Kim says tt webcams are under-used!
haha.

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junwei just lost it at 11:45 pm on 03 September 2009

so ive finally GRADUATED from my 10wks of CQ Course.
its amazing how someone who doesnt meet the course requirement can actually pass the course.
since i was enrolled into this course UNWILLINGLY,
i decided to try something out..
now it has been tested and proven tt it doesnt matter hw much effort you put into e course?
they'll still pass you ultimately becos they need you in tt certain field.
i've been wondering if it matters ever since i was in enlisted cos i really wanted to do well..
seriously, i think tt place has no standard at all.
everyone's covering up everything everywhere.
its like fighting a war with the perm staffs there everyday.

oh well, of cos there's a good side to it.
i've made many interesting friends.
and most imptly, i met Umar at the course! (: .
its been damn long since i last saw him.
knowing tt i'll be spending the nxt 10wks with him on the first day of the course really made me feel better abt the whole thing.

so i guess this goodbye to being a Pilot and being in SAF Band is final.
8 more mths and i'll be out of this shit.

===================================

A: "eh u CPL or 3SG ahh?"
Me: "CPL only la.. u want to promote me?"
A: "okay you come back i promote you."
Me: "okay thank you!"

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junwei just lost it at 11:45 pm on 02 September 2009

=====================================

"A shattered porcelain can nvr be fixed."

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we have a humbug here!
somebody get the pest control!! well thank you very much for your reply but pls refer to an entry dated 31 December 2007, thank you.

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we all have our charlatan days where we try to talk cock, act smart and talk loudly. 3 CORE VALUES OF A Specialist.

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junwei just lost it at 12:45 am on 01 September 2009

some times its not tt i dont trust you
at least i knw its my fault if i personally handled it
i dont want to blame you if something bad happens
some times its just best to settle things on your own

im never angry at a person

just the situation..

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junwei just lost it at 11:45 pm on 27 August 2009

its finally here! (: .

what's wrong with me..

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junwei just lost it at 11:57 pm on 23 August 2009

i like it when you're enjoying. (: .

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junwei just lost it at 1:43 pm on 02 August 2009

so its the Wanky Pants tt has been causing the funny smell around the house.

lol!

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junwei just lost it at 4:04 pm on 24 July 2009

"eh ppl fit ley..
ppl got six pack leh..
you have or not?" -Edwin CQ

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junwei just lost it at 9:33 am on 17 July 2009

something happened and now your job is at stake.
prolly your entire team too.

you old fucks got to knw who you're dealing with now.
ppl with diplomas or A lvls have brains.

methods of what you guys are using now aint for us.

force us to do what we dont want to do?
this is what you get.
having to deal with ppl with such poor attitude.
who to blame?
heh.

live with it and stop nagging...
Anus.

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junwei just lost it at 8:55 pm on 03 July 2009

I FEEL FUCKING SHORT CHANGED BY THE BLOODY **F MAN!
DAMN IT.
fine, you want to give me shit right..
i shall give you back all the shit.

i shall not bother abt the ppl who are gonna suffer due to my irresponsible act.
why bother?
isnt this what you guys teach?
just you wait...

and thank you very much, LECKURMOM.
for giving me all the false hopes all these while.
fuck you.

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junwei just lost it at 1:45 pm on 30 June 2009

used to have lack of disk space.
now tt i have excess of disk space,
duplicated files are all over!!

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junwei just lost it at 1:55 pm on 28 June 2009

OH MY GAWD at the two Tans.

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junwei just lost it at 12:55 am on 23 June 2009

i dont wanna be a CQ
no no
please no..

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junwei just lost it at 8:17 pm on 21 June 2009

blue skies in long hot summer days
white sands are surfing in the bays
blue moutain tops where we can play
god made for us in 7 days.

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junwei just lost it at 1:04 pm on 07 June 2009

good?
you like it?
then why dont you get it?

not yours.. sigh.
just not yours.
i just wanted a piece of the cake.

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junwei just lost it at 1:44 am on 07 June 2009

i feel sad & jaded whenever i see pics taken in Tamworth being uploaded by successful applicants.

why wasnt i given a chance?


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junwei just lost it at 1:49 am on 06 June 2009

had a pretty interested week preparing for COC OC Parade.
was in the bike contingent with Xiong, Wilson and 3 other men.
seeing my fellow comrades fall one after another reminds me of Harpers Island's "one-by-one".
i was by right the nxt in line to fall but i didnt! :D .
OC broke down during his speech.

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junwei just lost it at 10:00 pm on 05 June 2009

finally had the guts to told my superior abt my interest with the SAF Band.
took the opportunity the of change of OC to do it.
he seems quite positive abt it.
now lets just pray for the best.

finally gotten my hp fixed too!

i lost my k2 passport size photo i used to put in my wallet. :/ .

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junwei just lost it at 9:45 pm on 21 May 2009

"every fucker mother son is a fucker mother son. he fucked ur mom and therefore you're the son." -Chng

that's what we learn in army.

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junwei just lost it at 3:20 pm on 12 April 2009

Handsome Suit.

someone who is beautiful on the outside does not mean he/she is beautiful on the inside and vice versa.

make up covers everything.

give someone a chance of proving him or herself.

don't be a prejudice.

are you sure tt you'll still feel the same for tt person after he/she has shown you his/her ugly side?
you might ans 'YES' w/o having to think twice.
tts just becos you're blinded by what you call 'love'.
thinking back time, i kinda thank god for what has happened. (:

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junwei just lost it at 2:49 pm on 12 April 2009

"Do not cry if the Sun sets at the end of the day, because the tears will not let you enjoy the beauty of the Stars."

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junwei just lost it at 2:22 pm on 25 January 2009

'single but not lonely'

is there such a status? lol!

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junwei just lost it at 4:22 am on 17 January 2009

"speaking as a completely objective third-party observer with absolutely no personal interest in the matter..."

haha bull shit!

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junwei just lost it at 11:53 pm on 05 January 2009

stupid bitch.
dont knw why my blood boils every time i see you.
hearing your voice makes me want to puke.

yet another year has passed.
happy POP!

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junwei just lost it at 3:58 pm on 14 December 2008

spec = talk cock and act smart.

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junwei just lost it at 5:07 pm on 19 October 2008

"all over the fuck-shop!"

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junwei just lost it at 5:40 am on 12 October 2008

1wk has past.
yea i finally let it all out..
and it had to be in front of my superior.
oh well..
weekend wasnt tt bad.
booking in tmr.
2130..

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junwei just lost it at 1:02 am on 28 September 2008

its that stage of life where i dont knw what to do..
what's the nxt step to take..
and this is damn depressing...

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junwei just lost it at 11:44 pm on 21 September 2008

hah everyone got what they wanted except me.
the berms i wanted to wear FOR A PARTY was worn by my dad and it got stained.
thinking abt it, i havent been getting whatever i want in life.
excluding study bonds and stuff..
leadership roles, girls, bleah..

maybe what Paige said was right.
God is fair.
if a girl is gd looking and has a hot bod, her character definitely suck.
there bound to be something tt's bad.
nth's perfect.

oh well..
i drive, i stay condo, lead a pretty gd life so tts what im gonna be missing out?
its a tad bit hard to swallow but i'll try to..
but u knw.. in the corner of my mind..
i'll still be wondering why..

fuck this shit.
always thinking of 'What if there's a better choice/better way of doing things'.
what if this..
what if that..
if there's always another better route/choice, then you'll nvr settle down and be satisfied with things!!

sounds true..
but tts me and i was brought up like that!
i just cant bear to see things go the wrong or lousier way when it cld have been done better if something was done earlier.

now whether i shld feel shitty abt myself or not i really dont knw.
cos there's always someone receiving more shit than you.
prolly just disappointed.

so was there actually a better route i cld have taken?
or shld i just settle down on this and accept the fact tt im in..
and the recent news tt i had a partial-fail for my medical for pilot becos my arms are too short.
i had to actually call in myself to ask..

this is basically what's making me feel fucked up.
sigh..
i guess its a very common phase in life tt ppl go thru..

why why..

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junwei just lost it at 3:12 pm on 20 September 2008

arms too short.
what the heck.

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junwei just lost it at 1:58 pm on 17 September 2008

Bizzare Love Triangle playing on iTunes..
Z2H performance tonight..

heh..

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junwei just lost it at 5:05 pm on 30 August 2008

not worth my fucking time and effort.
damn it.
6yrs..
grr.......

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junwei just lost it at 4:29 pm on 30 August 2008

watched NDP Preview with Jia Xu ytd.
Breakfast appointment with Boss Calvin n his wife Joyce.
went back to Z2H office to yoyo ard.
Lunch with Sherywn @ Thai Express.
FISH SPA @ Chinatown with Leon and Joyce. HAHA! was weird but the feeling was quite nice!
Dinner @ Pepper Lunch in town.

im very afraid.
its so unfair.
i'll actually have to make it to OCS to go for pilot training.
and in e event where i dont make it?
i wont go back to OCS.
i'll be posted back to some random unit and be a man.
what if i dont make it?
WHAT IF I DONT MAKE IT?

im just gonna give my best.
im gonna live my childhood dream! (: .
earn enough $ and go visit the Jap babes again!

GAMBATTE MUS!

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junwei just lost it at 2:09 am on 07 July 2008

Why People Horn?

becos the ppl above make us pay road tax.
once you pay, you feel like you deserve.
how'd you feel if you have to slow down becos of a cyclist who doesnt pay road tax and is occupying a lane?
you horn.
it has come to a point where it has molded us Singaporeans to be like that.
sad or not?
who to blame?

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junwei just lost it at 12:35 am on 06 July 2008

almost everybody owns a HP now.
i dont see why ppl will still call ppl's hse to look for someone when you can reach the person directly at his/her hp.
unless its "aye i call u back at ur hse phone" or something la..

zzz..

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junwei just lost it at 2:19 pm on 05 July 2008

it was trying your best till you get it.
and then it evolved into getting spotted and you decide.

now its all mixed up.. -,-

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junwei just lost it at 4:05 pm on 03 July 2008

caught 'Get Smart' at VIVO with Yin Yin.
exchanged presents.
hah she got me DVDs frm Australia!
Long Way Round & Long Way Down! WOO!
its abt this 2 guys Ewan McGregor & Charley Boorman riding their BMW bikes crossing continents.
its amazing.
its like back packing on bikes.
i'd love to do it too!!
"2 Men, 4 Wheels and 20,000 Miles. LONG WAY ROUND is truly the adventure of a lifetime"

had a friendly Flag Football match with e juniors back in Ngee Ann.
happy to see the senior team again.
we won 3 - 1.

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junwei just lost it at 11:00 pm on 02 July 2008

"yea was alrdy having a tad bit feelings for lou. then you came along so i was thinking maybe i cld choose. maybe if u appeared at MOS e other night then things wld have been different. i like lou nw. Why?"

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junwei just lost it at 12:47 am on 02 July 2008

thanks giving and appreciate dinner by e pool side with ma family!
neighbour tt stays in e 15th floor walked pass and commented "woah.. so romantic ahh".
hah.
i just realised its the 1st time tt we did this kind of stuff.
believe it or not we've been staying here for 7yrs alrdy.
my entire teenage life was spent here.
haha.

finally let it out after 4yrs.
i wont regret.
its all up to you.
rmb what happened at the rink 4yrs ago.

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junwei just lost it at 12:43 am on 01 July 2008

guy A & guy B are performers.

guy A has contacts of a guy who does events but doesnt have equipments.

guy B has the equipments needed but doesnt have the contacts.

guy A & guy B did a few performances tgt and guy B promises to collaborate with guy A for performances cos he has contacts.

guy B contacts e guy who does events personally and started doing more performances with his own ppl w/o letting guy A know.

do ppl still knw what principles are? or is the world just filled with selfish and horrible ppl?

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junwei just lost it at 8:55 pm on 30 June 2008

went to z2h office for hand over to shujun then cabbed down to VCH to help take pics for yhcb concert.

wah.. lots of memories flashed i watch them perform. time flies.. it has been 4 yrs since i graduate.

spoke to a junior on my way back. he shared abt how poor his family is and yet he worked hard to find sponsors and donations for his trip. finally he cld go for free and even collected extra funds to help others. these are the ppl who really knw e value of money and appreciate small lil things.

i was taken aback and thot of how fortunate i am. i happy for him tt money isnt spoiling his dreams of doing what he wants. instead, it gives him the drive to work harder. he's doing very well in poly nw (: .

ppl who've experienced failure and are given a 2nd chance will usually become successful ppl.

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junwei just lost it at 7:04 pm on 30 June 2008

you look at the ex-bfs and tell yourself "heh. its gonna be easy".

but no.. its not that easy im tellin you..

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junwei just lost it at 9:21 am on 29 June 2008

farewell bbq party over.
thanks to everyone who came.
if anything wld to happen to me when im in Army, im glad tt our paths crossed and getting to knw you is one of the best things tt happened in my life.

im very very happy. thank you. (: .

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junwei just lost it at 9:26 pm on 28 June 2008

back from Japan.
i miss Japan
i love Japan
i wanna stay there!

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junwei just lost it at 12:09 pm on 27 June 2008

somehow i dont feel like waking up to reality..

have fun in Vietnam.

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junwei just lost it at 2:34 pm on 16 June 2008

singing love songs to you on the train back home in foreign land was worth it after all.

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junwei just lost it at 2:03 pm on 09 June 2008

To whoever it may concern,

thanks for introducing Vegetarianism into the family, fucking our family up and making us distant frm our Dad.

fu*k you.

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junwei just lost it at 7:02 pm on 07 June 2008

its so stupid when ppl wait for ppl to do something and nothing is done in the end.

fuck.

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junwei just lost it at 8:51 pm on 30 May 2008

it was right smack at my face
but couldnt do anything
cos others were in the room.


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junwei just lost it at 9:03 pm on 06 April 2008

Goodbye Singapore.

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junwei just lost it at 2:15 am on 24 March 2008

i see some smart conversation going on here..

its when when you actually take time of think of what to say
and the conversation becomes like an examination
tts when you knw you wanna impress.
tts when you knw you tts the person u wanna hang out with.
tts when you knw tts the person whom you look out for in the crowd.
tts when you knw its him/her.

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junwei just lost it at 9:34 pm on 20 March 2008

"experiential learning" means letting you do everything and learning from good/bad experience.

which also means tt its gonna screw up big time if you're not gonna do anything abt it.

lesson learned:
-lower down EQ lvl.
-knwing lesser stuffs.
-reading up lesser.
-change into a "less-sms-friendly" hp.
-not jot down too many stuffs.
-have more time for myself.
-just heck it.

my k1 hp just died on me.
for once i felt like im a free man.
changed to a less complex phone; brand new & empty.
every sms tt came in is like a complete stranger smsing you.
the "only friend" tt i had in my hp contact list.
the chat at the beach.
the experiencing of chaos and hell tgt.
THE CHANGING OF MINDSET from NOT SO SURE to SURE.

im happy.
now all i need is REST!

BYE! (: (:

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junwei just lost it at 8:21 pm on 20 March 2008

played mahjong @ Robin's after performance!
i won $18.50!!
Z2H THREE Graduation today..
yet another closure of a memorable season.
i'll miss you guys and the wonderful memories we had.. (: .


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junwei just lost it at 9:05 am on 16 March 2008

"your body so small, cock so big!"

LOL!

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junwei just lost it at 12:42 am on 14 March 2008

thanks (:

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junwei just lost it at 3:30 pm on 10 March 2008

leaving for Tioman now..
that injection i had this morning totally not helping.

-,-

GOODBYE!

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junwei just lost it at 11:44 pm on 06 March 2008

leaving for Tioman now..
that injection i had this morning totally not helping.

-,-

GOODBYE!

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junwei just lost it at 11:44 pm on 06 March 2008

im sorry i have to act this way.
ive got my principles and dignity
unlike someone that doesnt.

screw you wannabe.
you cant fuck her you dumb ass.
oh btw you drum like shit.

i guess its another goodbye. sigh its so sad.

---------------------------------------

i passed my 3rd bike prac.
maintained my 1 time pass record all the way till nw.
hopefully i'll clear 2A's TP first time too!

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junwei just lost it at 11:14 pm on 06 March 2008

No Overpowering

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, ordemands too much.
People in love tend to think that love will conquer alland their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, thisis not the case.
There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."
It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing thespouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.
It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

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junwei just lost it at 11:00 pm on 06 March 2008

i wanna try skydiving!!

just did an adventure camp with Fairfield Methodist Pri 5 students.
finally had the chance to do such things!
so fun!

everything has been so packed after exams man.
its good anyway since it steers off all the stupid thots.
but im running out of clothes to wear!

(: (: (:

awaiting my Tioman trip this fri with Laura and family!
gonna stay over her place tmr!

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junwei just lost it at 11:12 pm on 05 March 2008

time flies.
3 yrs of poly life.. over.
3 yrs in ambs.. over.
retreat camp was enjoyable.
quite disappointed with the turn out of the yr 3s thou.

went to Z2H office right after that.
rehearsal was fantastic!
nvr jammed with the pros since like forever!

anyway, 15th march @ CSC.
msg me if you're interested! (: .

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junwei just lost it at 7:44 pm on 02 March 2008

they look beautiful cos you're in love. -,-

you feel all those cos you're a girl. and since when are you so caring of other's feelings? thot you're tt damn heck care type.

bahh..

chalet was great!
felt like a really holiday get-away.
checked in after Principal's treat at Swissotel @ Merchant Court.
the food was disappointing.

Tioman diving trip nxt week!
CAN'T WAIT!!

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junwei just lost it at 4:40 pm on 29 February 2008

i hate it when things dont go according to plan.

lo.0k...

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junwei just lost it at 12:32 pm on 22 February 2008

great. yet another one. congratuFUCKINGlations.

principles, principles, what fucking principles?

dont come and act sad and concerned.

fuck off.

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junwei just lost it at 12:11 am on 22 February 2008

DO YOU HAVE THE FUCKING COURTESY TO AT LEAST REPLY?!!

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junwei just lost it at 12:08 am on 22 February 2008

im officially a free man now!!

"Should I give up, Or should I just keep chasing pavements?"

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junwei just lost it at 1:23 am on 20 February 2008

S$199.50 for 30mins on Singapore Flyer on Valentine's Day.
that makes S$6.65 per min!!

MADNESS!

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junwei just lost it at 11:30 pm on 13 February 2008

why ask?
does it matter?
it makes you feel gd isnt it?

it makes you feel good at other ppl's expense.

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junwei just lost it at 12:25 pm on 13 February 2008

created opportunities after opportunities for other ppl.
when wld it be my turn?

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junwei just lost it at 2:37 pm on 11 February 2008

ya la fucking say ppl nvr ask when you dont even mean it..
then when ppl ask you back nicely you say must see how..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

another one dont reply, dont initiate, dont bother...

the other one dont even knw what you want.

go and die la..

fuck.

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junwei just lost it at 3:18 am on 11 February 2008

lol kyaw and su got married yesterday.
attended the solemnization with ma classmates.
yea took pics for them.
went home to do ship design presentation.
dumb.

YEP trip briefing today!
whee cant wait!

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junwei just lost it at 6:49 pm on 30 January 2008

yea i wonder too..
i fucking wonder.

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junwei just lost it at 10:20 pm on 28 January 2008

whenever you wanna get angry or irritated with ppl asking for help,
think abt the times where ppl took time and patience to help you.

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junwei just lost it at 12:04 pm on 26 January 2008

is a fisherman being picky when he doesnt wanna catch the fish ard him but those further out in sea?

does fishes tt are easier to catch make them cheaper?

does fishes tt are harder to catch make them more worth the catch?

what makes the fisherman think tt he has what it takes to catch those fishes?
or is the bait not attractive enough?
are the fishes hungry in the first place?

i kinda think tt he shldnt have waited too long.
but hw wld he knw if the bait has turned bad and tt he needs change a new one?

how is he gonna fucking knw..
well at least he wont regret not trying.

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junwei just lost it at 10:58 pm on 23 January 2008

you help ppl doesnt mean tt ppl will appreciate you.
doesnt mean that that person will help you back.
but still..
you gotta be nice.

went Chinatown to snap some pics with Juvina
didnt knw it has so much interesting stuffs there!
back home rushing projs now.

1 more week to end of sch.
oh man..

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junwei just lost it at 9:41 pm on 23 January 2008

another friend's father passed away.
life is really unpredictable...

some times i wish my EQ can be lower than usual..
zzz...

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junwei just lost it at 10:32 pm on 22 January 2008

ITS BACK TO BBDC AGAIN!
the same counter girl who enrolled me for my Class 3 and 2B served me again.
she's known as the 'make up one-inch-thick' girl.
haha.

it sure feels weird riding again after so lloonnnggg...
riding a BIGGER bike somemore.
the same phobia of taking the bike down from main stand.
omg its so much more heavy this time!

met up with vin, bert and ycy.
ycy & bert had driving lessons.
vin stays near by.
lunch @ canteen 1.
com lab.
photoshoot @ Picture ME, UE Square.
Alumni Clubhouse Lan Shop.
Z2H..

its the final lap!
2 more weeks to end of sch.
mixed feelings.


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junwei just lost it at 6:38 pm on 22 January 2008

OPEN HSE IS OVER!!
had dinner and some drinks with some amb aft tt.
it was a night of realisation and where many pictures and stories kinda linked up.
things tt you didnt wanna let ppl knw becos of the BIG "A".
well, of cos some were just speculations.
HAH!

i bet both of them were sneezing thru the entire night.

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junwei just lost it at 11:41 am on 20 January 2008

NAVAL DIVING UNIT (NDU)?!
oh no..
shld i skip the Vocational Assessment or go for it?

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junwei just lost it at 12:08 am on 19 January 2008

You are Black Tiger, who is gentle to others, has kind and good natured personality.
You are also a broad minded and optimistic person.
You don't feel shy to strangers, and is very popular.
You have a chance of becoming very big.
You are extremely vigorous, and are strong both physically and mentally.
You are someone who is in the center of everything and are very tough person.
Under this power, you hide great ideas and are calculating all the risks.
This gives high success rate to your every action.
You don't get lost in emotions; you can analyze the circumstance calmly to make decisions.
Never the less, you tend to lack snap decision makings, and therefore sometimes are unable to show your merits.
You are capable in many different areas, so sometimes be over confident.
You tend to be unclear on "taking moral responsibility".
And be influenced by easy decisions.
If your environment treats you indulgently, you ought to be careful.
You are independent occupational wise too.
You are too proud to lower head, so you are not suited in service industry.
But if you overcome this weakness, you may become a person of high caliber.
You are talented in academic and literary area.
If you can broaden and balance out your vision, there is high possibility that you may become famous in this area.
You are weak on paper work that requires preciseness.
Occupations like government officials which think highly of authority would suit you.

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junwei just lost it at 12:35 am on 17 January 2008

its all abt feelings.
some times you knw a guy tt has everything a girl wanted in a guy
but you just dont like him
cos there's no feelings.

you follow the guy tt you had feelings for
but you dont get what you want in a guy when you're with him.

will you really be happy in the end?
feelings can be developed you see.
some say they wld follow their feelings first then make whatever the guy has as their wants.

-.-

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junwei just lost it at 12:10 pm on 15 January 2008

friend A brings friend X to a party.
friend B brings friend Y.

X & Y made out after getting high.
lol.

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junwei just lost it at 3:54 pm on 13 January 2008

are you sure you want to have friends working in restaurant tt you frequent?
lol.
think abt it..

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junwei just lost it at 12:50 am on 12 January 2008

how you knw when someone doesnt have EQ?
maybe that person is just acting?
like how you're so good at it.
heh.

this world is full of actors.
just be happy (o:> .

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junwei just lost it at 10:16 pm on 09 January 2008

i dont believe in hitting girls
but i strongly believe tt they shld get back what they deserve.

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junwei just lost it at 5:23 pm on 05 January 2008

try? try your balls.
its either yes or die kind of thing?
trying to me is just a pushing back of results day.
heh.

=======================================

i hate it when you're put in a situation when its nobody's fault.
you get fucking pissed at the sitatuation.
SO WHAT?!


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junwei just lost it at 3:32 am on 31 December 2007

its inevitable that most ppl choose their friends; who they wanna be friends with.

you cant really blame them cos YOU yourself do that obliviously.

in my point of view, i think i do tt some times becos im one who wants to make e best out of everything.
is tt e right thing to do?
i dont knw.
or maybe sticking to simple life & accepting whatever shit life throws to you is still the best thing to do.
some say "you'll never ever settle with one if you continue to think this way".
quite true eh..

anyway that's a lil side track of what i wanna blog abt.

im beginning to understand why its so much easier to be close to a friend's friend after being introduced to each other.

look, by being friends with A means that both of you have alrdy been deemed "friend-worthy" by each other.

A introduces A's friend, B, to C.

then again B must have been deemed "friend-worthy" by A since they're friends.

so i think B & C shldnt have any prob with getting along with each other cos of how A CHOOSES A's friends of e same kind, style.

it fucking gets back at you damn hard.
K-A-R-M-A again?

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junwei just lost it at 3:07 am on 31 December 2007

K1 Motor Sport @ Punngol w weiwen & eunice.
watched Dragon Dance Competition
home.

not bad..
managed to practice my camera skills.
hehe.

=======================================
thots of an anti-social:

tell you things u also dont understand.
understand alrdy also dont believe.
make me irritated only.
might as well dont talk.
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junwei just lost it at 2:53 am on 31 December 2007

you give space
yea space.
hell load of it.

concert was spectacular!

saw pretty pretty ppl after sucha lllooonnnggg time.

villa bali with charmine ann.

home.

(:

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junwei just lost it at 2:53 am on 30 December 2007

OH SHIT I HAVENT SEND MY MPA INTERVIEW QUESTIONS BACK TO THEM YET!

PHOTOSHOOT THIS COMING WED 7PM!!

gonna meet adam for lunch now. bye.

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junwei just lost it at 1:27 pm on 29 December 2007

i cant believe i missed the Navy Open Hse thingy.
i overslept. LOL!
hp alarm didnt go on.
guess its just fate..
*cough* air-force *cough*

I DROVE AND SAT IN MY FRIEND'S MINI-COOPER!
wah shiok balls. :D .

Z2H Combined Event 1 yesterday.
AMB x'mas party..
then went over to Kasar's place.

Yuhua Alumni Band Concert later.
damn happy.
(: (: :) :)

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junwei just lost it at 1:03 pm on 29 December 2007

doesnt mean other ppl have you also must have.

what's your definition of being successful?

doesnt mean that being rich & wealthy means tt you're above all. tt normal person's soul might worth so much more than yours.

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junwei just lost it at 9:19 pm on 26 December 2007

haiya so hideous for what..
so much for being complicated.
and not being able to forget the past.
heh.

merry fucking xmas.

this week wasnt tt bad.

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junwei just lost it at 12:45 pm on 25 December 2007

some fuckers just have no initiative to return stuffs la.
especially when the stuff he borrowed is a branded thing.
grr..

i wld go to e extend of going to e person's place just to return cos i borrowed.
dont knw what he's thinking.

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junwei just lost it at 9:55 am on 23 December 2007

OMG! I THINK MY KIT IS COMPLETE NOW!

Nikon D80 + Nikon 18-77mm f/3.5~4.5G + Vitacom Fish-Eye 67mm Adaptor + Tokina 12~24mm + Nikon 50mm f/1.8D.

life is good!

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junwei just lost it at 9:11 pm on 09 December 2007

WOW!

jamming + watch AE's gig @ *scape tmr.

TGIF? need week is common test. darn.

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junwei just lost it at 11:31 pm on 06 December 2007

"the meet up with 1st gf."

VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word.
Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager.
Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh
Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

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junwei just lost it at 1:12 am on 05 December 2007

got rejected for com service trip by MDE again.

some times i wonder why they put 'open for all' when they only choose their dept ppl to go.. -,-

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junwei just lost it at 5:28 pm on 04 December 2007

"where is your bike?" security guard asked.
"no more, no more!"

heh.
yes i sold it away to an Indian guy for 1.3k thru e bike forum.


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junwei just lost it at 5:11 pm on 04 December 2007

just got my new Tokina 12~24mm Wide Angle Lens frm Peninsula today!

Ebar's Appreciation Dinner @ Melt Cafe, Oriental Hotel!
now im feeling guity for not working for damn long!

stay over @ Laura's was good.
dinner, movie, surprise, games, drinks, ppl getting drunk, priceless pics, jacuzzi, laura's driving, dinner, etc.
more to come! more to come!

2 friends just got lucky.
it came just like that.
*snap*

now i finally knw how Mr. A felt.
totally..
well what to do..
'since we're gonna be bandmates, might as well get close now'.
or maybe the silent killer.
zzz..

thanks bro.
for e updates and all.
i knw i havent been down for few weeks alrdy.
nw tt singer's cousin goes there too,
wont it be damn weird?
i'll catch up with u in person soon.
this is e kind of person u need in life.

:} .

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junwei just lost it at 12:41 am on 04 December 2007

in love with a band member?

i guess so...

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junwei just lost it at 12:12 pm on 02 December 2007

first you compliment and then you bring e nasty truth.

tts supposed to make u feel better?

i might be either getting a pit bike or ksr 110 to play track.
still figuring a way.

cant wait for tmr's stay over!


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junwei just lost it at 1:16 am on 01 December 2007

"i tried too hard and she tore my feelings like i had none
and ripped them away"


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junwei just lost it at 3:44 pm on 27 November 2007

went ambs room to wish ma bro good luck for his date yesterday.
went home and started calling both parties for tips and what they shld do!
LOL damn funny!
it was like playing MTV's Wanna Come In show.

was at Wala Wala when i received an sms telling me everything went well and better than expected.

HOHO!

cant wait for gathering @ Laura's this sat!
its gonna be so much fun!

Wala was a disappointment last night.
3 times i've been there,
3 times i heard most of e same songs being played over again.
i wont be going down any time soon.
time to check out new places (: .

dinner @ Dempsey tonight!

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junwei just lost it at 1:41 pm on 27 November 2007

something tells me tt i shld let her knw.
somethings tells me not to..

how?

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junwei just lost it at 12:49 am on 26 November 2007

im feeling quite disappointed.
like ure waiting for this friend of urs to tell u stuffs..
then he goes like
"oh sorry.. i wasnt sure of my feelings back then. even up till yesterday. so what u want to knw? i'll tell you."

i think there's no meaning to it alrdy right?
like no initiative.

zero2hero THREE launching tmr!
long long day!

save tonight and fight e break of dawn
come tmr,
tmr i'll be gone.

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junwei just lost it at 1:27 am on 25 November 2007

Mr. Subrata Chanda, my inspirational lecturer, spoke abt doing things and having a correct mind set when doing things.

its actually quite true!
when you're working and boss tells you to do something.
you'll do it immediately becos you're earning his money.

but when mom or teacher ask u to do work
you become all lazy
and try to find all sorts of excuses.

he was saying its human nature tt we're all lazy ppl
but some times we need to trick our brains a lil
to make ourselves do work.

SO START DOING WORK!
GET BUSY! (: .

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junwei just lost it at 1:28 pm on 24 November 2007

red camp 4 ended.
2 more weeks to CT.

life goes on..

standing by e side watching ppl getting happy :D

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junwei just lost it at 1:07 am on 24 November 2007

even adults have insecurities
and they need reassurance.

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junwei just lost it at 1:05 am on 23 November 2007

ive been seeing accidents ard for e past few days.
xinhui says tt its e accidents period.

did opening titles shooting for a chan 5 documentary.
they paid only $10!
but nt bad la.. only look at camera & smile. lol.

first day of red camp 4!
cant wait for fri's Hop Nite.

Z2H 3 starting this Sunday.

so what e hell's happening now eh?
yes? no?
go ahead? or what?

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junwei just lost it at 10:33 pm on 21 November 2007

5 hrs of Pilot selection test @ CMPB today.
played 'computer games' tt reqiured a lot of hand-foot-ears coordination.
not bad they provided Oreos and Milo.

collected Van at Triangle
no more crack wind screen.

kenny emo came over.
im going to pool side now.
chao..

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junwei just lost it at 10:40 pm on 15 November 2007

the mad Sophia threw a flying punch at me yesterday.
my god.

ok this was what happened.
what has said to have 'stored' and 'kept inside' for 2 and a half years exploded yesterday.
and it had to be me to active it
-,-

she threw super colourful vulgaries e guys in class.
we changed classrooms.
she slammed e door open and screamed
"JUN WEI YOU COME OUT HERE NOW!"
i went out obediently
she took a chair out by e way..
she brought me to e end of e building where e railings were
and started screaming in my face
"WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM"
"my prob is YOU (:"

i answered her all one liners and i swear i gave the most 'guai lan' face ever to her.

she didnt knw what else to say.
there was a moment of slience.
then she threw a freaking punch over!
LOL!
of cos i blocked.. aiya thinking abt it i shld have retaliated ah..
its called self-defence.
e girls quickly got hold of her asking her to wake up.
and then i started to throw my sarcastic and super straight remarks.

fuck you la.
pls wake up.
u think tt im e only guy in sch tt doesnt like u?
the whole fren freaking hates you!
even frens frm Myanmar hates you.
you think those ppl ard u now are your friends ah?
u shld do some soul searching on whats wrong with u
and attend some character development programme

chun you e fatty started pushing me away
i wanted to say somemore la..
she activated me also lor..
then this fucking extra said
"junwei she's a female leh.."

come on its not like im going to punch her back.
i will NEVER do tt to a girl.
u freaking slapped Steph.
another guy tt a lot of ppl fucking hate.

ahh whatever..
its so freaking dramatic.
personal issues between 2 person wanna kick up a big fuss.

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junwei just lost it at 10:11 pm on 15 November 2007

"you love him/her but why do you still wanna let him/her leave?"

are you waiting as well or are you not interested?

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junwei just lost it at 12:27 am on 15 November 2007

HURRAY!

im selected to go for RSAF PILOT SELECTION TEST! :D :D .

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junwei just lost it at 1:56 pm on 13 November 2007

i dont wanna play best-man-wins game.

please..

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junwei just lost it at 12:42 am on 09 November 2007

China isnt a bad place after all..

yea buddy "A" i knw how you feel now.
like you have no control..
u just feel like a loser

u bring one in & they get close faster than expected.
what can i say..

i kinda gave it away reluctantly,
i think you felt it too.
what to do..

lets not talk abt emo stuffs anymore..

IM GOING PHUKET FOR ONBOARD DIVING TRIP WITH LAURA & FAMILY!
WHEE HOOO!!
its gonna be my first ever onboard experience!
cant wait man!

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junwei just lost it at 2:36 pm on 08 November 2007

GONE.
another friend's father have just moved on...

when will ppl start appreaciating ppl.
or they'll only do when tt person is gone?

life is so short.

deepest condolences to juvi & family.

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junwei just lost it at 1:13 am on 23 October 2007

they scream and frown in pain
while some just takes it in and bare with it for slighty less than a quad.
now im feeling guity.

Geylang Methodist S3 VIVO tmr.
STATION MASTER!
WHEE I HANDLING THE EGG STATION!
they're given tape, straws and EGG and they're supposed to throw it down from 2nd floor!

LUCKILY IVE FIGURED OUT A WAY TO NOT MAKE MYSELF CLEAN UP E MESS!

talents..
they make you stand out.
you're shining so bright
tt so many else cld see.
i dont think i matter.

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junwei just lost it at 1:04 am on 23 October 2007

my god.
Plush is full of horny & desperate ah bengs.
whats wrong with them seriously.
they kept trying to grind the ebar girls and went round asking ah lians for numbers.
the musik was good.
just the crowd.

we still enjoyed ourselves thou. :D .

fuck MIA ppl.
fuck all of em!

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junwei just lost it at 7:50 pm on 21 October 2007

"when all the hurt you seem to be feeling and all these negative thoughts dont define who you are.. but become a part of you. you learn to accept it and it helps you become the real you. not trying to move on, in the words you say, because moving on just means that you wanna forget and throw away that part of life."
-thoma

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junwei just lost it at 1:07 am on 18 October 2007

losers review/debrief is when the person you used to like gets attached and you ask him/her how he/her got together with e other guy/girl.

and then you feel really like a loser after that.

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junwei just lost it at 12:47 am on 15 October 2007

just came back from SL Camp.
met up with ah loon on tue for e 2nd time.
=D .

you'll knw tt you're really tired when you can even fall aslp while driving, shitting and peeing. LOL.

whyy.. why are there ppl who are so uncontactable.

some times there's so much that you want to say
but situations just dont allow.

i knw it sounds wrong but
im missing China.

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junwei just lost it at 9:58 pm on 12 October 2007

"there a lil truth in every 'jk'".

LOL!

happy 21st Neng Hao!

pick up from the fall and move on! we'll always be there for you!

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junwei just lost it at 12:09 pm on 09 October 2007

i think its really sad to have RELIABILITY ZERO friends.
its like when you call him/her,
you dont knw if he/her wld pick up.
when you give him/her a task,
you wldnt knw if it wld be done.
you sms tt fellow,
either takes very long to reply or NEVER REPLY AT ALL.

this brings me to e topic abt handphones.
i really do not understand why some ppl who doesnt reply sms and pick up calls own one for.
some times i just feel like smashing his/her hp on e floor when i meet him/her.

"Its strange how people can still feel unhappy and unsatisfied even after finding someone who has met almost all the criteria of an ideal partner."

does it mean "not being able to find the willingness to love?"

:/

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junwei just lost it at 4:22 am on 07 October 2007

The Bottom Line
Things are changing in an unpleasant way -- but this is a learning opportunity.

In Detail
As inviting as the water may look, it could be freezing cold. Dip a toe into a potential new experience today and get a feel for what you may be in for. Ask people who have gone in before you for their insight, but be sure to use a critical ear. They may have a vested interest in discouraging you. An evaluation could take a few days, so keep your schedule loose and stall off making any big commitments. Cautious behavior may force you to go slower than you usually do, but it's a wise course of action now.


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junwei just lost it at 6:05 pm on 03 October 2007

slap back to reality.

everything feels like its out of lub.
prolly cos its 7 yrs old.
no wonder they're doing maintenance outside alrdy.

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junwei just lost it at 3:12 pm on 02 October 2007

was just discussing with my sis abt giving an impression to ppl tt you're not someone to mess with.

talking abt giving and helping.
Calvin was sharing last sat during Z2H debrief..
imagine one day someone come to you in heaven
"i knw you dont knw me but i just want to thank you because you saved my life."
or basically just did something tt impacted his/her life in a good way.
dont u think its good?
it means everything to me.
i'll be very glad if someone comes up to me and say tt!

seriously i dont get what you girls are thinking.
if a guy is too good, you cant love him becos he's too good for you.
worst still if he's a good for nothing guy, you wont even think abt it.
so what?
gangsta lovin' kind?

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junwei just lost it at 12:35 am on 19 September 2007

'zhi ji ren' or 'members' in english.
hah.
i knew it frm e start when you 're-appeared'.

i somehow doubt a lil.
not only me but someone else too.

but we'll see.
and i wish you well.

(: .

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junwei just lost it at 7:09 pm on 18 September 2007

ever walked pass SOMEONE and
you go 'OH SHIT!'
cos you wanted tt person to see you at your best?

why..

why live your life to impress ppl

start doing something for yourself.

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junwei just lost it at 6:29 pm on 17 September 2007

i dont understand what's so difficult.
just by clicking some buttons and sending pics over.
very diff is it?
i think its a very simple task.
to some ppl,
its like moving house.
they take years to do it.

laura, timo and neng hao came over today
thanks for the surprise and company.

shld be going to fly tmr.. :} .

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junwei just lost it at 12:05 am on 17 September 2007

sign i cant believe you really deducted my pay.
thou it was only 2 bucks.
ppl had a really bad morning u knw.

i practice this mouth shutting thing.
and e thing abt knwing when to speak & when not to.
just becos im working for you for $.

thanks to this self-control,
i think tt is why i still have my jobs.

i can be very frank
and very very sarcastic
if i want to.

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junwei just lost it at 2:16 am on 16 September 2007

so this is e last day of my bday week.
haa.
thanks to every single soul who wished me!

did trail @ Sungei Buloh with putri, gilbert and albert on ma bday.
bert & bert. lol.
the kids were so well behaved!
one of e best trails ever.

FYP meeting on WED.
met Laura after tt.
she just came back from US like 5am tt morning.
dinner @ Spice.

did VIVO trail on thurs.
man the kids were horrible.
e teacher told me tt they're considered 'the better bunch'.
HAH! CANT IMAGINE IF I TOOK E REALLY BAD ONES.
met ah loon after tt.
a really really old friend ah ah loon.
haha.. my p1 & 2 classmate.. not sure if we were in e same class in p2.
chatted a hell lot.
she just realised tt she has been dating a pick up artist since July.
hmm...

these fucking bastard guys who treat girls like TOYS.

i think we really clicked very well.
a lot of common topics.
not only our zodiac match (according to her).
our believes and perception of life is more or less the same.

FRI started late.
woke up abt 3pm+
met up with wil & gang @ Zion Rd.
rode Bumble Bee there cos i think she misses me :D
went down to liat towers *bucks to chill more.
didnt follow them to happy days cos i needed to buy air tickets e nxt day.

went to singapore expo with mum, aunts, godma & laura for Travel Fair.
bought tickets for my Shanghai & HK trip.
everything's confirmed!
finally!
Z2H Debrief @ Victor's place.
i felt like sucha small fly there AS USUAL.
anyway..
accepted e offer to be drum instructor again.
Z2H 3 drummers i shall see you soon on 25 Nov.

photo shooting day nxt thurs @ Merchant Loop.
i'll be flying my remote control kite there too!
and... Central's STARBUCKS! :D .

tts all for now.
and its not like anyone care.
so.. just VANISH! (:

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junwei just lost it at 1:06 am on 16 September 2007

had bday dinner with family last night.
didnt really enjoyed e food but more of e reunion.

gonna have bday dinner with divers tonight @ Esmirada, Orchard Hotel!
we gonna smash plates on the floor!
DABIN GOT HIS DSLR ALRDY! OMG!

my hk & shanghai trip will be confirmed after tonight's meeting with them.

i too think tt by flying away,
you can leave some things behind and not bring them back.
but i was so wrong.
2 yrs ago in Oct Sabah in some kampong.
my Baby-G watch rang.
it reminded me of our anniversary.
i cldnt help but to think abt e past for e rest of e night.

STUPID EUNICE IM GOING TO KILL YOU FOR FORGETTING TO BRING YOUR DSLR TO WORK TODAY! URGH!

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junwei just lost it at 12:44 pm on 10 September 2007

time flies.

MEL Camp on board Super Star Virgo & Z2H is over.
the cruise was memorable.
so is Z2H.
thanks to the ppl who came down and support.
got to jam with professionals after sucha long time!
thanks for e nice feedbacks.

i managed to fly e remote control kite a few rounds on my first attempt!
now bad aye! hehe.

gonna plan for a hk & shanghai trip now.
10/9's dinner with ma diving friends will confirm everything.

hmm..
i kinda see and feel a hope in it.
just give me more responses yeah.
i think everything else matches.
music & star.
we'll see how it goes some day this nxt week!

looking forward!
looking forward!

:} .

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junwei just lost it at 1:05 pm on 09 September 2007

these are the kind of bastards
who dont knw how to appreciate e things tt they have.
recently i've seen 4.
spoil e name of guys.

what to do. i think they're just too good looking.

fun ah like that?

lets waste time chasing cars
around our heads
i've got one more place
you wanna join me?

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junwei just lost it at 5:01 pm on 23 August 2007

"most relationships seem so transitory
they're all good but not the permanent one"

Putri said:
"Every song ends, But is that any reason not to enjoy the music?"

quite true aye.

e world is really unfair.
things tt you get too easily,
you think its too cheap
and tt you didnt work hard for it.
things that you try and try but you just cant get hold of,
you doubt e existence of God.

i kinda like the hopeful feeling thou,
but how long do you wanna be in tt dreamy world?

i hope, i hope and i pray that one day blah blah blah...

can anybody tell me how do you get a 'willingness to love'?

i wanna get a DSLR.
and travel ard with it.
is it just another passing craze?
i dont knw.

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junwei just lost it at 3:16 pm on 22 August 2007

its getting flabby..
holidays coming..

heh heh..

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junwei just lost it at 8:22 pm on 18 August 2007

shit i had paranormal experience on early mon morning!
2nd day of the 7th month.
e radio in e dinning room turned on by itself twice.

hah.

------------------------------------------------------------------

girl lost guys attentions,
falls into depression
and fails to admit.

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z2h combined event 2 tmr.. :} .


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junwei just lost it at 12:48 am on 18 August 2007

well done ms lecturer!
if it wasnt for you, we wldnt have have anything to do!
prolly just rot our ass here and wait for pay.
moreover its e exam period nw; students are busy studying at home.
we have no more lectures to conduct.
THANKS!!

"we're not here to hunt you down"
right. -.-

its e first time i get this shit in my whole entire poly life?
nobody cares abt this shit in NP.
unlike you, they're not so anal.
we're not trained to be writers or editors.

"some of my engineering students can write very well too you knw!"
you think i care?

"no matter what you've passed this module alrdy"

"the record will only stay in ngee ann"

then still want us to go back for what? waste our time and your time.

"its the system that you have to go thru"
*raise voice on e phone -.-

to me i think you just wanna get a pat on e back 'GOOD JOB FOR CATCHING THEM'.

"if i keep my heart inside, of cos im very sorry and *(&*(^&*@%#@ but if take my heart out, im &*&^&*@%#*&^@#@"

"of cos i got to take my heart out. i got to be PROFESSIONAL"

"you guys have been very good students. very puntual, active and contribute a lot during class. it really pains me to have to go thru this.

screw you. you dont even want to help. kept going rounds and rounds to explain things. i guess its because you're just a part time lecturer.

congrats ms lecturer. you're gonna get some medal at the end of the yr.

im going sch now.
we'll see what happens.
i love challenges. :D .

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junwei just lost it at 12:11 pm on 13 August 2007

drove my idol home after e gig.
so cool la!
i didnt knw iPod can connect to e van's stero wirelessly thru radio channel.
my god.

Timbre with e guys and supporting Melvin & Shah's African Drum troop was POWER PACKED!
had so much fun!
i love you Chun You!
happy 19th!
I GOT MY DREAM REMOTE CONTROL FLYING KITE AS MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT AND A MEMBERSHIP TO 'GOFLYKITE'.
they're the onces that flew those colourful kites for this year's NDP!
LIFE IS REALLY GETTING BETTER AND BETTER! :D




*thanks babe for helping me out so much. you knw who you are. you're always here to read and give me surprises. lol.

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junwei just lost it at 10:02 am on 12 August 2007

ANOTHER AWESOME GIG!
MY GOD!!
THE CROWD @ ATTICA WAS SO MUCH BETTER THAN E PREVIOUS ONE!
free flow all night.

next project we're heading to KL!
with all expenses paid for!

what else can i say.

LIFE IS GOOD!

*too bad something caught up for you at home & u had to leave early. ):

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junwei just lost it at 3:22 am on 11 August 2007

my body is still aching!

another performance this fri @ ATTICA.

:} .

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junwei just lost it at 3:27 pm on 07 August 2007

finally!
we've been talking abt this ever since we came back from Bali.
too bad dabin cant join us. :(

didnt expect it to be so fun since ppl said its 'fake wake boarding'.
and its for ppl who cant AFFORD wake boarding.

oh well.
i think its so damn fun
and we're definitely gonna go back
to complete more stunts!

night ferry ride back to homeland
was wonderful
seeing couples cuddling
lights
waves

reminds me of the nite
when i stared into e skies
while listening to rain drops

"Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
you're not easy to find

Is it possible Ms. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise"

how do get 'willingness to love you'?
how do you buy it?
how do you work for it?
how do you show tt you deserve it?
my whole 'body' is aching.
real bad.

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junwei just lost it at 12:28 am on 05 August 2007

finally!
we've been talking abt this ever since we came back from Bali.
too bad dabin cant join us. :(

didnt expect it to be so fun since ppl said its 'fake wake boarding'.
and its for ppl who cant AFFORD wake boarding.

oh well.
i think its so damn fun
and we're definitely gonna go back
to complete more stunts!

night ferry ride back to homeland
was wonderful
seeing head resting couples
lights
waves

reminds me of the nite
when i stared into e skies
while listening to rain drops

"Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
you're not easy to find

Is it possible Ms. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise"


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junwei just lost it at 12:28 am on 05 August 2007

Baybeats.
Cable Ski.

:} .

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junwei just lost it at 7:24 am on 04 August 2007

i've missed out so many great opportunities.

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?!

people photo.
NAFA.
cute monkey.
japan trip.
sec 1-2.
1st.

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junwei just lost it at 12:55 am on 31 July 2007

you kinda closed up the gap when you poked fun.

NDP Preview yesterday.
thou its e 4th time i saw it.
each time is different.
it gets better every show.
9 August will be e last one alrdy.

i will definitely miss this experience.

shit i cant make it for challengers.
clashed with e cruise trip.

DAMN!

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junwei just lost it at 2:11 am on 30 July 2007

why does hot girls relate to skates?

err.. my definition of hot.

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junwei just lost it at 7:13 pm on 27 July 2007

"every morning my brain tells me to exercise but my body laughs at that idea."

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junwei just lost it at 10:29 pm on 23 July 2007

AWESOME NIGHT!

i had the honour of playing with my IDOL.
my god..
2 HOT dancers danced along with us as we grooved and stormed.
once in a lifetime experience.
free flow of drinks.
good music.
good crowd.
good company.
(too bad neng neng and lola cldnt come)
good MONEY!

looking forward for our next project!

i cld still drive home yesterday! MUAHAHA!

:D :D :D.

Z2H event later on!

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junwei just lost it at 4:55 pm on 21 July 2007

"That which is beautiful is not always good; but that which is good is always beautiful"

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junwei just lost it at 4:29 pm on 19 July 2007

$450 for a 10min drum performance.
sounds good?

missed the small fish.
caught e big fish.

see ya this fri @ 11pm @ Double O! :} .

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junwei just lost it at 1:02 am on 19 July 2007

"you dont have gf? what a joke! let me matchmake you. indians are matchmakers. how abt *******?"

"you? no gf? dont lie la!"

"your gf must be really cool & pretty. have i met her?"

where is she? where is she? my girly girl.

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junwei just lost it at 11:49 pm on 17 July 2007

you knw sometimes its not like you dont bother or dont care.
but you're just too busy and occupied.
so whoever asks you out at e right time
and you happen to have some time to spare,
you'll just go with him/her.

others might see it as
'you have time for this person/group but not me/us'.
ever been in this kind of situation before?

it sucks.

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junwei just lost it at 6:35 pm on 12 July 2007

i miss 'easy access'
but it comes with a very heavy price tag
often its like an emotional roller-coaster ride
esp when e other party isnt loyal
and faithful

im actually very happy with my life right now.
with good friends all around me.
ppl who will make you feel comfy when you're with them.
with everything tt i want ard me,
what more can i ask for.
yeah.

just continue chasing the never ending dreams of mine. FOCUS!

:D .

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junwei just lost it at 4:29 pm on 10 July 2007

forgot to blog abt e success of yesterday's MISSION! haha!
chun you really stood at e guide house at 7.30am in e morning!


went to town to catch Transformers with albert, chun you and shi jun.
its like the first time we actually go TOWN together as classmates.
man! after 3 years!
it has been sucha long time since i last went to town!


everything's my fault. im sorry.. just blame it on me. its as thou i didnt try.


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junwei just lost it at 11:37 pm on 06 July 2007

i guess i've leveled up? lol!
wah i didnt knw it was only 10mins.
power ah..

proud of myself! :D .

still cant find the switch to on e light. hmm..

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junwei just lost it at 1:49 am on 06 July 2007

i swear you saw the wrong person.

need attention?
go find mama.
do i look like someone who will give a lot of attention?

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junwei just lost it at 11:24 pm on 03 July 2007

aiyo why ppl say you flirt..

neway, watched soccer match with ambs on sun.
dinner with grp 1 at clementi botak jones
van's coming tmr!
got mission to do.

:} .

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junwei just lost it at 10:25 pm on 03 July 2007

last minute 'surprises'
they are so irritating.


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junwei just lost it at 2:23 pm on 30 June 2007

LYDIA CHAN is back from US for GOOD!

hooray! long lost friend who left w/o saying a word when i was 14..

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junwei just lost it at 3:15 am on 29 June 2007

you're not always right.
ppl dont have to always agree with you.
you dont have to always win.
you only wanna hear the good stuffs.
you cant face reality.
you're so full of yourself.
you need reassurance when you hear bad stuffs.
denial.
liar.
lie in your face kind.
# faced.
"i hate 2 faced ppl"
HEH!
ppl who are better than you treatens you.
you're flooded by insecurities.
over sensitive.
spiking ppl seems to be your hobby.
petty.
ppl who thinks different frm you or disagrees with you = enermies.
what for having grp discussions then.
and to think that you're ready for e real world.
you KING
you BOSS
you RULE!
im not worthy

m/

if that's what makes you happy. :D

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junwei just lost it at 3:48 pm on 28 June 2007

attended my friend father's funeral wake last night till abt 4am plus to give company & pay respect.
ppl can just go like that.
drop dead at a restaurant.
its so sudden.

it made me wanna treasure e ppl ard me more
and be nicer to them
cos you'll nvr knw..
today? tmr? nxt week?
anytime man.

it also made me think and reflect back.
there's no point getting angry at someone and end up hating e person your whole life.
if you'd have to angry at him/her,
let it be just for a lil while.
life is short.

and many-a-times, we're just angry at e situation.
but ppl tend to look at things differently.

everyone is different in their own unique way.
you being diff doesnt mean you're more superior than e other.
you might be feeling superior in this way.
e other person might feel superior in his/her own way.
its just different models or e world.

what if i'd have to leave tmr?
would anybody care?
would you?

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junwei just lost it at 3:12 pm on 28 June 2007

i live in a world where i think nobody cares.
isnt tt good?
when you dont expect much, lil things tt ppl do can really touch you.
"oh you actually cared ah.. thanks ah"

i always try to give everything i can to every friend.
but why does some still want to talk behind your back & stab you real hard.
what wrong have i done mister?

when you expect too much
and things dont go the way you want it to be
that's when everything starts crushing down.
do you start blaming others?
will you be angry at ppl?
everyone's at fault except you?

its always abt you, you and only you.


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junwei just lost it at 4:40 pm on 26 June 2007

i knew it was ard there.
its always my gut instinct tt bring me there.

the gays appeared friendly today.
lol.
e guy who said he had dinner date was there too.

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junwei just lost it at 12:12 am on 26 June 2007

stupid gays. wait a while also cannot.
must be meeting your gay friends for dinner right.

oh hello shallow thinker.
here's a mask for you :} .

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junwei just lost it at 6:14 pm on 24 June 2007

when true friends turn their backs against you.
the ones that tells you TRUE FACTS & UNPLSEANT STUFFS.
the ones who have to comfort you and 'reassure' you tt you're not dadadada so as to make you feel better.
who are you gonna fall back on when your temp friends are gone?
the ones that make you feel SUPERIOR, ABOVE ALL, THE BEST, COOL, KING, etc.
they're only temporary.

who is it to blame? blame it all on true friends.

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junwei just lost it at 5:07 pm on 23 June 2007

dad reached home.
picked neng hao, thomasina and sam from Esplanade.
(got caught by them trying to check out hot girls lining to enter DXO. shit!)
headed down to laura's.
supper at simpang.
chill, gossips, 'work' at basement.

returned car at 9.30am.
packet breakfast for family.
slept till 3pm.
work.

sorry laura for being MIA. well i had a great time catching up with you and updates abt each other's lives. really hope you understood me and e situation i was in. <3 <3 <3

:}

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junwei just lost it at 4:20 pm on 23 June 2007

all the small heads(G).

a new way of tanning.

now i knw. (J) means Japan. (U) means USA. (E) means Europe.

its coming its coming! nxt week! :D .

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junwei just lost it at 5:31 pm on 22 June 2007

A BRAND NEW NITENDO DS LITE! WOO!!!

$350 FOR A 6MINS DRUM PERFORMANCE. DEAL OR NO DEAL? LOL!

SEE YOU THERE AT DXO NXT SAT! TT GUY SAID FREE FLOW OF ANYTHING AFTER E PERFORMANCE! WOO!!!

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junwei just lost it at 4:22 pm on 20 June 2007

i was called insensitive after trying to open up.
so what exactly do you want?
be careful with my words while opening up?
then what's e use of opening up if you only want to hear e good stuffs?

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junwei just lost it at 9:32 am on 19 June 2007

ONE WHOLE WEEK FULLY PACKED WITH ACTIVITIES!!

mon: PPP.
tue: FYP.
wed: Band Camp.
thur: AMB camp
fri: AMB camp.
sat: GENTING.
sun: GENTING.
mon: GENITNG.

gonna meet up for FYP tmr again. i've got like 3 projects due when sch reopens. what fucking holiday is this?

many times when you just swallow things so as to make the other party a happier person. why cant these ppl just understand. its not tt they cant fight back, they just dont want it - can't be bothered.

what's more. life is short. why bother abt such stuffs. there're so many better things in life to look forward to aye.

-van
-yuhua concert
-esplanade performances
-assignment datelines
-PSP
-Pasir Ris trips
-2A
-power boat rides
-completing 'to-do-list' with Grace
-DRZ 400
-Superstar Virgo sch trip

its just different model of the world. :} .

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junwei just lost it at 12:36 am on 19 June 2007

1st ever drum fest in SG was AWESOME.

$97 .
1pm - 8pm.
drummers from overseas.
drum battle.
acid jazz bands.
caught up with SK after so long.
totally worth it!

bumble's bee condition?
vespa riding TW.
go figure.

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junwei just lost it at 10:33 pm on 11 June 2007

nothing is perfect.. serious.

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junwei just lost it at 1:08 am on 08 June 2007

bumble bee's super weird yesterday. came out a funny sound and broke down while i was on PIE. manage to restart it and headed for e nearest exit.
got it towed to eng sin.

uncle started e bike and everything was normal!
i round it ard for a lil while and everything seems normal.
left e shop w/o doing anything.
meaning $25 of towing fees wasted.
GRR!

god playing tricks on me?

i rmb a Justina from TKGS. lol.

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junwei just lost it at 5:35 pm on 05 June 2007

kid in a teenager's body.
is it your fault?


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junwei just lost it at 1:52 am on 03 June 2007

seriously jw, its a want.. not a need.
its kinda like a give or take situation.
you can't have everything.

dont waste ur time on jealousy. some times ur ahead some times ur behind. e race is long.

stop judging others. w-t-f are you?

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junwei just lost it at 8:27 pm on 29 May 2007

you cant really blame ppl for not accepting you.
but you insist on putting a negative remark abt tt person.
so as to not make yourself fall deeper.

in this case you somehow lose a friend.
its so sad.

well if you say
"no we shld still be BESTIES"
it'll be like leading on to a never ending chase.

why is life like that.

ever wished you had more than 24hrs a day or e ability to spilt your body into 2 so u can be at two different places at e same time?

is knwing more friends good?

e.g. :
you knw A, B & C in yr 1
hang out..
you knw D, E & F in yr 2
hang out with A, B, C & D, E, F
knw G, H, I in yr 3
hang out with D, E, F & G, H, I

how abt A, B, C?

some wld say "i've got new friends i dont need you guys anymore".

some wld say "hang out soon!"
but nvr did.

some gets scolding and insults for still hanging out with sec sch friends all e time when they're alrdy in poly.

just like after you get married and settle down with a family. you dont hang out with your sec sch or poly or jc mates anymore right?

e world is so small. i just met another anti-CTM person yesterday.
just you wait. stepping on any of anti-CTM person's tail and tts it.

:} .

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junwei just lost it at 12:17 am on 21 May 2007

gangsta bad boy attitude or friendly humble lil boy?

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junwei just lost it at 12:46 am on 27 April 2007

HAHAHAHA and laugh it away as if nothing has happened..

fake smiles of the everyday life (: (: (:

:} :} :}

Champagne Supernova.

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junwei just lost it at 12:13 am on 27 April 2007

i didnt knw our friendship was all about comparing, comparing and comparing. to me, i see it as a blessing.. and sharing of difference. i dont knw why you wanna think it that way. tt really ruins our friendship you knw. the J word itself shldnt even have existed.

havent been blogging for quite a while.
i did 4 trails this week cos i've got a week break before sch starts. i got excused for my last week of attachment for FOC camp! passed both bike and car alrdy. AMB retreat camp over.

sch's starting tmr.. BUMBLE BEE is all done up!

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junwei just lost it at 12:11 am on 16 April 2007

high market value
high market value
high market value

does it fucking matter at the end of the day?..

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junwei just lost it at 1:59 am on 11 April 2007

why do i get irritated just by hearing your name. insecuries? i dont think so.

you hate me cos you think im going after her. and if im not wrong you went round telling people tt you dont like her. so whats e fuss abt? heh.

you have no balls to face a fight up front and you have no idea how many ppl wanna have their fists on your face.

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junwei just lost it at 1:36 am on 07 April 2007

i totally dont understand how people can missed out big events or important gatherings.. i felt so guity and wasting for missing Kai Lin's 21st all becos of a stupid reason. i assumed it was too late and tt they had all gone home alrdy.

oh yea thanks for everything. i really enjoyed and treasured every moment we had. your meaning of spending time tgt as buddies. thanks.

crush on him back in yr 1.
when you were still attached.
tt surely didnt help much.
but thanks. (: .


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junwei just lost it at 11:37 pm on 12 March 2007

"a worst way to miss a person is to sit beside him/her and knw that you can't have him/her" - Rasmi

tell me abt it..
you appear as a desperate if you keep asking
be called 'trying too hard'
if you dont try hard
she will think that you're not interested.

if you ask keep asking and keep getting rejected
you'll wanna give some day
but some times she's just trying to play hard.
yet some times when you think she's just playing hard,
she's really not interested.

some ppl ask straight
"hey you free? wanna ****?"
while some ppl take it slowly
girls like it to be done slowly i guess
but what if..
you took 3-4months and in e end when you finally asked
the ans is "i only treated you as a good friend"
or "i dont think this is mutual"
and that's not after bad signs
but good signs all e way
late night phone calls
'you're e person i want to speak to before i end my day'
your heart gets crushed
you feel like shit
and you dont ever wanna talk to tt person any more

-invitation to hse parties
-bringing you for movies with girlfriends to want to show YOU to THEM
-flirting on MRT rides
lending you a CD on first meet up just so she secures another meet up with YOU
-skipping sch and coming to your place
-telling you tt u're nice to hug
-dying to meet you after your work
-studying at your workplace to wait for you to end work
-'i want to be able to see you and be near you'
-sitting on your lap to not have to share a chair side by side
-cheering you up when you're down
-dolling up to want to look pretty just for you
-called you while she's in tears cos mama asked her to cut her hair
-telling you abt her eyecandy in sch every single day to test and see if you get jealous
-arms across shoulders to act like you're gonna trip her but you just wanna get close
-e day when u tried to bring him home and mama&papa got unset
-covering up spoilt plans
-doing whatever I can to make you happy
-spending precious time tgt by e pool side at e condo near your place
-$10 taxi rides home every time
-chilling out sessions at e youth park
-starbucks goodies just for you
-pouring whip cream into each other's mouth
-dropping by just to say hi when you're at work
-saying no to bus rides home tgt but deep inside you want it
-lying on his shoulders in e bus knwing tt he'll wake you when its your stop
-the emo times at taka
-the emo times at your void deck
-the almost falling tears after entering the cab
-e confession.
-the stupid surprised tt failed at bishan mrt
-the cryout on bed while listening to Tiger Lily on ipod mini
-the acting like nothing has happened

why why why...

FUCK THIS SHIT.

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junwei just lost it at 4:11 pm on 09 March 2007

SOM today was okay. first time ngee ann's holding examinations at SIM's Grand Hall. man, it's really grand in there. could sit up to 800+ ppl.

TODAY MARKS A VERY SPECIAL DAY. i remember vividly what e tow truck uncle told when he brought my bike back to my place from e workshop. he said tt one of these days.. lets not talk abt accident la.. one of these days surely, you'll fall off from your bike. be it parking your bike, stopping it, maneuvering it ard, with or without a pillion. it will happen. AND TODAY IS E DAY. HAHAHA! AT E GRAND ENTRANCE OF NGEE ANN POLY SOMEMORE!

i needed to pass Rachel her pineapple tarts. so we decided to meet at e entrance. and you knw, np's entrance is kinda sloping down. and i was stupid enough to stop there with a 50+ KG pillion, Shahjahan. i remember putting it in side stand but i dont knw why e bike started moving forward. i dont knw why e side stand went off too. man it was hilarious la! i knew e bike was surely gonna fall alrdy. luckily my left leg supported it and it slowly went down on e left side. LOL. too bad it wasnt strong enough to push it back up.

it was so funny. i kept asking him to get off e bike so i could push it back up but he couldnt. cos both our legs were kinda stucked. we just looked at each other helplessly. haha. rachel's friends came to help.

it was damn embarrassing at e same time funny. all e chicken noodles tt we tabao-ED fell out of e box! ppl from all over were looking. ppl who were waiting for cabs la.. waiting for bus at e bus stop. ppl who were walking in & out of sch.. crossing e overhead bridge. HAHA!
okay im really not good with explaining them in words. but i'll be more than willing to share it face to face and demonstrate everything tt happened.

GOOD EXPERIENCE ANYWAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. SON OF MUSTAK! :} .

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junwei just lost it at 8:16 pm on 13 February 2007

HELLO CAROLINE. THANKS FOR VISITING :} .

"if someone tells you something bad abt your best friend. and it'll be really hurtful if your best friend knw abt it. you knw for sure that he/she is gonna feel sad for at least a day. would you tell